Long awaited, yes indeed. Remember all my VLOGS about my braces that disappeared one day? I haven’t really been posting much on that site since I was deleted… a lot of effort gone to waste. I made a clip last night finally. Volume is low but anyways, enjoy…
Emily Marilyn with hot pink braces
I posted a POLL on my blogspot. Tell me what you want to see on my site. I’m getting hate mail over not posting BONDAGE content on my site. This will start soon, trust me. Go and vote! The poll is on the right side.
Now onto a completely different subject. Sexual Objectification.
**DISCLAIMER – what I’m describing below is dealing with my personal interests with domination and submission. This is not about my PRO sessions or cam show alter ego. I also enjoy very much dominating my select slaves, basically I get off on BDSM. Below is coming from my personal desires I’ve put away for the past decade**
This gets tricky for me. For those of you who have followed my career since it blossomed the week I turned 18 (under various stage names!) you will fully understand that I am submissive. I’ve dedicated my life to the mission of fulfilling my submissive needs that run as a burning desire through my blood. Dressing for pleasure is massive and to combine it with this sexual objectification is perfection. This must be the only way I can take it. I need to be looked at as an object to be used – the main focus here is OBJECTIFICATION. Yet all of this in a loving manor, not abusive. I need to be cherished not humiliated. I’m not sure what this stems from but if I sat here analyzing my interests the beauty of it would vanish.
I need to be ordered. Told what to do. I must be mentally dominated. Put in my place. Used for enjoyment. Seriously, I just can’t enjoy sex without this tone involved. I’ve locked it away for so long as this need … this burning need gets in the way of living a practical life. Being misunderstood is what I’m used to but it’s time I just live it and relish in it. It’s not really my style to get vulgar in my descriptions but just to describe what I love… allow me to indulge…
Ordered to dress… but dressed for HIM and HIS enjoyment. Of course I completely get off on dressing for sex (duh!) but this whole concept of dressing for HIM gets me off like crazy. Feeling nervous like something may be off.. is it good enough? Does he like it? Ack! This nervousness that makes me feel like a giddy school girl I enjoy immensely. What if it’s not good enough? What is the repercussion? On my knees. This is where I belong. On my knees before HIM. Forced to crawl. This is my place, on my knees beneath HIM. Told what to do. I yearn for HIM to put me into position for HIS enjoyment. On my hands and knees with my back arched. On my back with my stockings legs pulled up to my chest with my legs spread. Anticipation of HIS fingers touching me in a slow manor leading to an intense build up. Used. A fetish sex doll with one purpose and one purpose only.
This is what I am into and I’m so tired of putting it on the back burners. It’s quite complicated for me to get this as… since it’s not something I can DO to my lover …. it’s something I NEED DONE TO ME. This is what makes things complicated. Dreading having to explain it. It’s not really something you can explain and expect to get. Story of my life… being misunderstood and frustrated hence for my reasoning of doing it in my JOB.
By the way… Remember INSEX? I have a rather interesting announcement about INSEX (HARDTIED) and Pd coming soon… as soon as next week! My bondage fans will be pleased to say the least. It’s been almost 10 years since I was there last… and its way past due! I’m ready, willing, and yearning more than ever. A bubble of passion about to burst.
I scheduled my return to INSEX (HARDTIED) 2 months ago. This was due to my intense sexual frustration and seeking a release. It’s been practically a decade since it was fulfilled. Though… my personal life might be getting more interesting… which was not expected when I booked INSEX.
**UPDATE RIGHT WHEN I POSTED THE BLOG ABOVE**
SPEAK OF THE DEVIL!
The minute I posted this blog I got yet ANOTHER email come in about INSEX. Normally it is fan mail practically on a daily basis from my intense scenes at INSEX but this email the guy is confused:
“Hi Emily,
I am sure you have answered this question lots of time, but just recently I came across some old videos you shoot for the extinct site Insex. Two of those videos were pretty shocking for me. In one video the guy placed needles in your soles until you started to bleed while you were tied in stocks.
In the other video the same guy had you doggie style in a big sink and applied an enema to you. After a while you could not control yourself and accidentally “exploded” if you know what I mean.
My question, and as I said before I am sure you have answered before, is if those events (the bleeding and the “explosion”) were planned ahead or the guy was just taking advantage of the situation. The site was knocked down by the government so I guess he was really pushing the limits.”
First of all Pd was going by my personal interests and fulfilling my desires. Secondly, I am returning next week so it can’t be all bad!
I’m a sensation SLUT. Point. Blank.
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Hey Emily,
I have often wondered myself why I’m into BDSM?
I would say, in consensual BDSM, the submissive is actually the one in control. He/She has the power to say STOP at any time. The submissive is the one who dictates the rules and boundaries.
Being tightly bound and at the mercy of someone else is, paradoxically, liberating (if it’s consensual of course). Letting someone else take control is not about giving up your freedom, it’s about freeing yourself from the burden of responsibility. You can let yourself completely go, because you know you are in good hands, in safe hands.
As a submissive you are the center of attention. Your look, your moans, your struggle is what triggers a sexual reaction in others. You are the goddess people look UP to, even though you are actually on your hands and knees.
While others have control over your body, you have control over their minds.
Thank you for your thoughts, I really love to read them.
Yes, exactly. I find that highly erotic! I dislike any form of humiliation as it takes the beauty of the submissive away and can cause negative feelings. This is why when I am in a submissive position I must be cherished.
@Emily
May I ask why you decided to go public with your fetishes? I guess your desire to be “objectified” played a major role.
Paris, Rome, Moscow, Tokyo, Sydney… thousands of men all over the world, men you don’t know, men you have never met or seen are probably looking at your photos at this very second.
You can arouse them without any actual physical contact. The mere sight of you can give men pleasure, induce a yearning, get them off.
Is that a turn on for you or is it just plain weird?
There are many sides to my sexuality and personality. A lot of what I do in my photos and video on emilymarilyn.com is not of a submissive nature at all. It’s more of a power trip than anything. Yes, I enjoy dressing for pleasure and releasing that sexual tension that builds up from that act. I fully understand the power of this to men who are tuned in to this style of dress and sexuality of a woman. I get off knowing that I am arousing men. I am a HUGE exhibitionist. I love for voyeurs to watch me and get off on me, what I’m wearing and how I am reacting sexually to all the sensations. Playboy TV did a show on me that evolved solely around that fact that I am a SENSATION SLUT. It was not about dom/sub or yada yada, it was merely showcasing me as fetishist.
I have many different sides that come out at different times.
I fully understand what my job as a fetish model is. It’s all about imagination, fantasies, sex and arousal.
You and I have so much in common. But I feel more like a bottom rather then a submissive. However once in a while I will get the urge to sub. I have to be dominant so much in my own life, plus it is my true personality. I get so busy that I forget to fulfill all of my hidden desires/needs. Know what I mean?
xoxox
jade
Hola Emily, realmente me encanta verte encadenada y torturada ya que sos muy linda y tu lugar en el mundo es un sotano y encadenada a sus paredes. Besos